Steps of moving on after loosing a baby

Babies Galore.... Well it seems I'm surrounded by women who are bringing new life into this world. Went to a babyshower yesterday. And i was ok. I thought it would be so much harder (this gal is due 10 days after I would have been). I'm glad that I am able to move on.... I am not "over it" but am moving on.
My body is so out of wack after the miscarriage, that it's not even funny. I've started tating suplements to help my body get into balance again. I finally made it over to a friend who does zoneterapi (Danish for Zoning) and it was amazing how many sore spots i had... I'd ask her what she was working on, and lo and behold if it wasn't something that had been causing problems for me lately (uterus, hip, siatica, back, neck, and, and, and...) I was nice to know that I wasn't just making all of these things up ÜÜÜ
I'm taking supplements and vitamins and drinking herbal teas to help things out. Plus I'm not "trying" to get pregnant, I'm trying to get everything normal again.
I know that we will have more children. I don't know when. I know that I can't pressure the Lord for an answer, but that it will happen. I also know that I should do what I can to get there.
I am greatful for my loving husband, who is there for me whatever we go through here in this life.

Hormones

Sometime I wonder if hormones are the ultimate test.... If I am strong enough to fight the urge to kill my family this month, I will be blessed for the next 3 1/2 weeks. And then we can start all over again... and see if I'm up for recieving more blessing that month.
but I have found that Symphany chocolate (the red one without all the added stuff) works better than a shot from a tranqualizer gun.

I guess all I can do is my best. And try to get my body back to normal after the loss of our unborn child.
So as I work through all these things, I try to do my part... I try hard to remember to read my scriptures. My prayers are something I'm working on (I know it isn't enought to help girls bless the food 20 times a day and say prayers with them at night) I need to make MY prayes a priority.
I'm on a herbal supplement kick along with vitamins, lets get my body refueled. and my poor husband is suffering..... I load him up with his too.

Band-aids a lesson to learn

Can we learn a lesson from bandaids?
I don't know.
Rhiannon bumped her nose at Oma's house.... and she needed a "sticker" to make it better. Not 5min later, she bumped her mouth... and needed another one. She sniffed and was sad, untill she had both her "stickers" on her sore spots. Then life could resume as normal.
We sometimes need bandaids for our hurts. Our own personal stickers. What's our stickers??? Icecream . . . CHOCOLATE...??? I think maybe we need to look at others things too. How about prayer? And reading our scriptures. Sometimes they are they stickers we need... bandaids don't always heal the hurts we recieve in life. So we should find the stickers that will help us. Sometimes it's a bandaid, a bar of chocolate, and sometimes it's getting on our knees and praying that is the right "sticker" for us.

Beauty is all around

If we look.. really look, we can find beauty all around us.

Family time at the Park

Monday night we went to the park for some family time. We spent time playing on the playground and then we headed down to the lake to look at the water. We had alot of fun.

6th Annual Harvest Fest

Every year since after moving into our own home, we have had a Harvest Fest. We invite people over for chili and frybread on Saturday after General Conference. The ladies and kids usually show up around 18:30 and they guys get here as soon as they can after Priesthood session.

People were a bit slow at getting here... but then they started pouring in. We were 28 people.... and we still had the whole livingroom empty.... we could have squezed in at least another 15 people.

Everybody had a good time and we really enjoyed it.

The idea behind it, is that we want our kids to grown up looking forward to General Conference.

Spiritual Me time = SaNiTy

I've found some sanity. Yes really.

Rhiannon threw a fit in the van after picking up Arilyn. This screaming?crying lasted for 30 mins. Oh she did take a break... you know while I was outside the van getting some stuff in the trunk. But as soon as I got back in... Rhiannon SCREAMED. Arilyn was a real trooper.
The thing is... it did not bother me at all. Truly. For once the screaming did not push a single button.
My relaxed attitude these last few days, have come from my ME time.
After taking Arilyn to preschool, I come back and set Rhiannon down for a bit of TV time (yeah, yeah, I know. Bad mom award)
I go to my room, sit on my bed and read. I'm working my way through "No doubt about it" by Sheri Dew, "Following Christ" and "The paradoxial commandments".
I read a bit in each of these. Then I say a prayer, and read a bit in The Book of Mormon. I spend about 30 min. on this, before going out and milking the goats.
Here is my take on sanity: not yelling at my kids... being calm... and not wanting to run away from everybody as fast as I can, when it gets to be too much.

My quotes for the day:
These really made an impression on me while reading today.

"Am I the woman I think I am, the woman I want to be?
Am I the woman the Savior needs me to be"
-Sheri Dew

"Each day we have the privilege of choosing whom we will follow. Each day we have opportunities to bolster and strengthen and exercise our faith. The Lord needed teh strength of the women of this Church as the seeds of the Restoration were planted and nourished. And He needs us today. He needs us to speak up for what is right, even when doing so is unpopular. He needs us to develop the spiritual maturity to hear the voice of the Lord and detect the deceptions of the adversary. He needs us to be everything we can be, to 'arise and shine forth, that (our) light may be a standard for the nations' (D&C 115:5)"
-No doubt about it, by Sheri Dew